So, I have been thinking, what makes people inclined to insult others? I think it's one way of allowing themselves feel high of themselves. As for me, I think I have evolved to a slightly better state , one that allows me to get by just fine. I have heard it a million times that letting go is one of the best things one could do to self. But only lately have I caught myself really letting go. It's not because I love people or because I am tired of them or because I am less of a cynic. It's because, I have come to realize,  holding grudges doesn't do any good. I break into cold sweat whenever I become mindful of how fast time passes. I remember very vividly, how I felt on my 20th birthday. I was not very happy. I felt I reached 20 too fast and I was in fear of time running too fast. And that day still feels like yesterday. Soon, I am going to be 30. Time does run fast. It's impartial to all my drama or anyone's for that matter. It's rather bit painful if I think about it. How the pain of insults , that I try to hold or once held so close to myself, are of no significance whatsoever. In time, they are just memories. I bristle with ego, so do most. My reality is a world full of egoistic humans (including myself), majority of whom either want you to fail or just don't have the time to care.

What do I do? I go to happy hours. I don't drink a beer. I lie, I laugh, I act and sometimes, I find comfort in all the insanity that's within me and outside me. I cope.