Did i Sleep?

Its time that i have written something. Here I am
As i was thinking about what I should be writing about, the malady that strikes me every single day seemed to be a better subject. It is the sleeplessness. I'll try not to dramatize it too much. There are many reasons for my sleeplessness and discussing those is of no interest to me, and so is the "how it feels to be sleepless" subject. (ofcourse, it does feel awful).

What interests me is what happens in the short intervals of the night/dawn in which I slip into sleep or rather what i believe is sleep. I get dreams which are very close to reality , so close that I can no longer be sure whether I have slept ( I hope i did). For instance, a dream about me dreaming , a dream about me feeling sleepless , a dream that I woke up and drank some water etc. One could differentiate dreams from reality by the characterisitics like absurdity, incredibility , temporal incoherence that dreams are said to possess. They are seldom close to what happens everyday as they are supposed to be one's subconscious state of mind acting out fantasies, sometimes so good to be true in the real world. The lack of awareness is what makes them exotic ,as they play as a film , without the dreamer having any control on the events that unravel.

When you are well aware that you are dreaming , then it is not qualified to be a simple dream. It is what is called a vivid dream. Being aware of what is happening, and being in control of the events that you wish you didn't have, you end up wondering if this is all a dream , or a dream in a dream ,or is it real?